How Am I Feeling Overall?

Trying not to do a happy dance about my test results yesterday that all came back negative. You know what happens when the Sirens and Angels report to the Big Guy that someone got great news. A huge red target gets painted on your chest, and in a few minutes, you get hit by a bike by a Jewish FASCIST like Jerry Seinfeld, Mark Cuban, or Jack Smith and wind up in the hospital for weeks with a broken femur.

Really good, thanks for asking.

I feel like a failure. I feel confused and angry because of my circumstances. I feel like I can’t get my feet off the ground in life, and that is very hard to swallow because everyone wants to be successful. I felt like things would get better, always looking for someone to come and be “that person” for me, but your white warrior in shining armor isn’t coming.

Not Bad but Not Good

Not bad but not good. Sometimes, it feels like I’m stuck in a perpetual state of neutrality, neither soaring high nor sinking low. Life can be a rollercoaster, and sometimes, it’s just more of the same.

Recently, however, things shifted. Thanks to some Divine intervention at its finest, I have a renewed sense of purpose and optimism. It’s a feeling that’s hard to put into words but one that brings a warm glow to my heart. Perhaps it’s the belief that everything happens for a reason, and sometimes, the universe has a plan for us that we can’t see yet.

Im Bored with People

I have seen all the characters in the human spectrum, and none of them interest me. They’re all the same, mostly superficial-based, and nothing noteworthy. It’s part of human nature, so it’s understandable. I haven’t met someone whose soul shines brightly. I haven’t met a wonderful soul, perhaps I have before, but only for fleeting moments.

I am not talking about a romantic connection either but more on a genuine human level. More of a friendly or congenial vibe. I am looking for more depth but not too serious. I guess, at times, I want to be goofy. It’s hard to put it in words, but it may seem weird. But it’s actually leaning towards the unique side. I am just being myself.

Most people are just being shallow nowadays, and that includes me. But I am here to find a soul to soul connection. No BS, no judgments, no pettiness, just open-mindedness, light feeling, carefree pure emotions, and great insight about many things. Beautiful mind, not too smart but at least with common sense. Great personality and you don’t need to be loud to embody one. Kind-hearted but with some acceptable evil nuances, of course. I am just crazy, maybe that’s what I am also looking for. A perfect partner in crime of life, not the kind that goes in your mind. It’s hard to explain. I believe I have yet to find someone who matches my level of sophistication.

I am just looking forward to getting to know someone who has a soul that bears the definition of a real human soul. An epitome of a beautiful soul. Call it crazy, but it is what it is. One doesn’t have to be perfect, someone who can be vulnerable as F trekking through life’s dramas, negativity, but still chooses to be strong and positive. Being a sigma INFJ-T, it’s hard to relate to shallow people, so loyalty and trustworthiness are just a bonus. Life is a special kind of maze, and it’s kinda sad thinking I might never find someone/someone like that in this lifetime, but it’s all good. I am fine, dandy, so, yeah, no worries at least for you. Still, I am hoping, praying to God that he will gift me one. But, with the craziness of this world, this picture below is more of my squad. Hehehe.

Wrapping Up

Ultimately, life’s journey is about finding your true self and connecting with others who resonate with your values and beliefs. While the road may be long and sometimes difficult, the rewards are immeasurable when you find that perfect soul to share life’s journey with.

About the Author

Meet Keen, a deep thinker and explorer of human connections. His journey is a testament to the importance of authenticity and the pursuit of genuine relationships. Follow his adventures on his blog to see how he balances life’s complexities and finds joy in his personal growth.