From Curiosity to Addiction: A Journey through Illegal Drugs

Many of us have had moments of curiosity that have led us down unexpected paths. For me, it all began at the tender age of 8 or 9, a time when my world was dominated by books and a newfound fascination with the paranormal. Specifically, I was captivated by the idea of witches and their supposed ability to fly. A library book, likely not designed for a child, hinted that this mythical ability was actually a result of the use of hallucinogens, leading to a lightbulb moment that would shape my future.

Curiosity and the Path to Discovery

The book suggested that modern theories attribute witchcraft to the use of substances like hallucinogens, such as mushrooms and ergot fungus. As a curious young reader, these concepts were beyond my understanding at the time. However, I was intrigued by the idea that there were substances that could make you see things, make you think you could fly, or even hear God's voice. This discovery was a significant moment for me, setting the stage for a transformation in my life.

After several years, this subconscious curiosity transformed into a clear determination. I resolved that the experience of using such substances would be the defining journey of my life. Being in a small rural market town made the prospect of obtaining these substances seem daunting, but the spark within me remained unquenched. I vowed to seek out this experience with all my might, storing this idea away in my heart as a goal for when I was old enough.

The First Encounter: Magic Mushrooms

It wasn't until I was around 15 that I finally took the leap. Through my school friends, who had older boyfriends that were part of the punk/post-punk scene, I was introduced to magic mushrooms. This was during the mid-80s, a time when such substances were becoming more accessible, especially in urban areas. I chose to have my first experience of hallucinogens in the same bedroom where I had read about them years earlier. The solitude allowed me to fully enjoy the experience, making it a memorable and formative trip. This initiated the start of my drug-using life, a journey filled with both joy and darkness.

Evolution of Addictive Behaviors

My drug experimenting didn't stop there. As I grew older, I began to incorporate other substances into my routine, starting with LSD during my late teens. Ecstasy, which arrived in the late 80s, became a favorite. There was a seemingly endless supply, and I found myself consumed by the desire to take it more and more. However, the constant use of Ecstasy and speed eventually took its toll, leaving me feeling depleted and worthless on Sunday mornings. It was in this state that I was introduced to heroin, which provided the smooth Sunday nights I craved. Soon, heroin became my primary and only drug, leading to an addiction that lasted nearly two decades.

Consequences and Recovery

The path to my current state of recovery was arduous. Heroin, initially a point of relief, quickly became a mandatory part of my daily life. I was an addicted addict, profoundly affected by my substance use. Even after over two decades, I'm still grappling with the aftermath, now on Methadone. It's a stark reminder of the consequences of my actions and a publisher of a cautionary story to those who may be considering a similar path.

The journey from a child's curiosity to a lifelong addiction is a somber tale. It serves as a reminder of the importance of making informed and responsible choices. For the sake of future generations, and for all of us, it's essential to understand the risks and potential dangers of engaging with illegal substances. drugs be a cautionary tale, not a journey to emulate.