From Heavy Alcoholic to a Success Story: My Journey to Sobriety

My Journey to Alcoholism

I grew up surrounded by substances, much like my father. From early teens, my life was marked by drinking, smoking weed, and a general disregard for my well-being. By 14, I was already living on someone's sofa, relying on state support, and sometimes sneaking back home to borrow money from my father. At 12, he was already buying me alcohol and cigarettes, a journey that led to a heavy drinking lifestyle that lasted nearly a decade.

As I entered high school, my love for drinking intensified. I could hold my drink better than most people. Clubbing and partying became a central part of my life, and with it came the need for Es, a form of clubbing alcohol, to deal with the comedown. However, around the age of 16, I developed a severe amphetamine sulfate problem which I managed with alcohol. Around this time, I owned a pub and was a singer in a local band, but my life was overshadowed by a deep cocaine addiction.

The Turning Point

At the age of 27, I realized I had missed out on half my life due to my addiction. It was a moment of clarity that surprised me, as I had previously wanted to die. Awareness of my alcohol-induced epilepsy played a crucial role in my decision to seek help. My doctor referred me to a detox unit, where I underwent a grueling 4-week process.

The detox was terrifying. I nearly died, and a fellow patient also passed away. Despite these harrowing experiences, I emerged clean, sober, and terrified of the real world. The initial weeks after detox were challenging, but the relief from paranoia and suicidal thoughts was immense.

Recovery and Transformation

Despite a brief relapse, I continued to maintain sobriety. I bought back the things I had sold during my addiction and even started making music again. My journey has taught me valuable lessons about empathy and resilience. I owe my existence to the understanding and support of others.

Today, I am 47 years old, and the stigma of my past addiction is gone. I co-own a pub, serving drinks that I once enjoyed but now appreciate the simplicity of. I have been clean for 7 years and am proud to be living proof that recovery is possible.

Empathy and Advocacy

My experiences have made me highly empathetic and sensitive. This journey has also instilled in me a strong advocacy for recovery. I now work with others who are struggling with addiction. I believe that if we help each other, we can overcome those challenges. The journey to sobriety is not just for me but for all those facing addiction.

The Road Ahead

My mantra is “one’s too many, cos tens not enough,” a stark contrast to the previous version which involved escalating alcohol consumption. I no longer engage in AA meetings, but understand their value for others. My commitment to sobriety is unwavering, and I will continue to support myself and others in this transformative journey.

Together, let's stay safe and support each other on this path to recovery.