Navigating the Daily Struggles of Bipolar Disorder: Insights from a Nurse’s Journey

Bipolar disorder can be a daily struggle for many individuals, particularly in the face of societal misunderstandings about the condition. As a nurse, my personal journey has provided unique insights into the complex emotions and challenges that come with living with bipolar disorder. Despite its challenges, managing the condition with a structured approach can help one lead a fulfilling life.

The Roller Coaster of Bipolar Disorder

Living with bipolar disorder can be overwhelming, often feeling like a continuous emotional roller coaster. Many people with bipolar disorder experience extremes of mood swings, from depression to mania, which can significantly impact daily life and professional roles. Simple phrases like "there goes the crazy bipolar" or "stop being bipolar" can be triggering and discouraging.

Not everyone fully understands the depth and breadth of bipolar disorder. In my experience, it's essential to educate others and combat stigmas. I've found that sharing my story and answering questions on forums spreads awareness and factual information about the condition.

Identifying and Managing a Bipolar Pattern

Recognizing patterns in my own behavior has been crucial in managing my bipolar disorder. Notably, at the age of 21, I identified a distinct cycle in my drug use and moods. Over two months, I would use benzodiazepines, opioids, and substances like marijuana, followed by stimulants, euphorics, and speed. This cycle led me to engage in impulsive behaviors, such as taking multiple jobs abroad without showing up, and forming toxic relationships.

The realization that I was at a low point in my life last year, having cheated and entered into relationships with various emotionally unstable individuals, marked a turning point for me. I knew I had to change my life, and since then, I've moved to a new city, quit all substances, and finally, I’ve quit smoking cigarettes, the last thing I struggled with.

Coping Strategies for Bipolar Disorder

After a year of sobriety, I've developed several effective coping strategies to manage my bipolar disorder:

Establishing Goals

Having a clear goal has been instrumental in my journey. I am a jazz player, and I've set the goal to go back to school and pass the exam. Currently, my goal is to be the best in my class at Vista Reading, which has always been a weak point for me.

Forcing Ongoing Effort

When battling major depressive episodes, it's essential to continue functioning. Even when I'm feeling depressed, I still strive to study for at least one to two hours daily. However, one hour is my absolute minimum, and I find it challenging to reach it during depressive episodes.

Physical Exercise

During manic episodes, I have an urge to engage in impulsive activities. Instead, I channel all my energy into physical exercise until I'm too tired to do anything unsustainable.

Regular Walks

Going out for a 15-minute walk daily, especially when I'm feeling depressed, has shown to be beneficial. It helps to clear my mind and provides a sense of structure.

Managing Relationships

Managing relationships is challenging, as I cannot make any promises and maintain boundaries in manic episodes. I’ve found it easier and more practical to engage in monogamous relationships rather than breaking existing relationships. It's important to communicate openly and honestly with those I’m in a relationship with about my condition.

Sleep is Paramount

Sleep is a non-negotiable rule. Establishing a consistent sleep routine has been crucial in managing my condition. Although life might not be easier with these rules, at least I'm not harming others and am working towards my goals. This isn’t a happy state, but it's necessary for my well-being.

Conclusion

Living with bipolar disorder involves daily struggles, but with the right tools and strategies, one can navigate these challenges and lead a more fulfilling life. For me, it's about maintaining a structured life, setting goals, staying consistent with my efforts, and prioritizing my health, especially my sleep.

If you or someone you know is struggling with bipolar disorder, reaching out to healthcare professionals and support groups can provide additional resources and guidance. Remember, you are not alone, and there is always hope for a better tomorrow.