Breaking Free from Meth and Moving On

Coming to terms with the fact that someone you love has a meth addiction can be incredibly difficult. It requires immense courage and strength to let go of the person you believed you could change. This is a journey many face, but the journey is far from easy. Sharing significant moments, years of love, and trust eroded by addiction can leave one yearning to hold onto the past rather than embrace the future.

When the world as we know it ends: A tale of love and addiction

He was once a meth user, while I, seeking a clean path, found myself in a life journey marred by deceit and concealment. After years as a couple, I couldn't endure the lies and cunning any longer. We chose to part ways, but the wound remains raw and unforgettable. Questions of how to move forward and leave that toxic chapter behind persistently plague me. He's no longer a good fit for me, but the yearning for that past companionship remains strong.

Grow up and make the right choice

It's as simple as this: loving someone different should require pursuing a relationship with them. But this is exactly where your head can lead you into making the best decision for your well-being. However, if you're still mulling over 'I still love him' and 'I can't get over him', it's time to put aside the childish need for closure and move on.

Questioning priorities: Drugs or You?

Consider this question: if I asked him, 'which would he choose between me and his drugs', the answer must be clear. If it's drugs, the drugs take precedence over you. He will likely prioritize his addiction, mixing you with the remnants of your worth as garbage. Ultimately, he thinks about drugs constantly, and you become secondary, mere trash.

Is he the one who got first priority in his life? Would he quit drugs upon your request? Does he hold respect for himself? If his addiction is the primary concern, his behavior demonstrates lack of respect for you, through his choice of lying and concealing. Does someone who truly loves you intentionally deceive you? Trust thrives in honesty, not deceit.

The Lie of Fixing Him

Dealing with a meth addict can often lead to an obsession with fixing the problem—imagining a peaceful, drug-free future all the while struggling against the gravity of reality. It's a potent mix of love and hope, obscured by the pain of unfulfilled expectations. Despite your efforts, you might still feel a void, a weakness, and an inability to control the situation. You might deeply love this person despite the toxicity, but after years, you realize that the hope for change is a mere chimera.

Years of disappointment and heartaches post-splits but still tracing the absent memories can finally weigh on you. Realize this process might be about letting go of him because he may not be the same person you once loved. Your initial love was tainted by the malice of addiction, and it is essential to refocus on yourself. You deserve love and respect, and ruminating over the past will only hinder your growth.

Taking Control: Moving Forward with Purpose

Now is the time to start making new choices that benefit your life. Engage in activities that keep your mind off your past. Dive into the gym, chat with friends, or start a new project. Explore new hobbies and connect with new people. Remember, initially, it might be challenging, but finding the right fit will help you forget him in no time.

Your past and the choices you've made affect your future, and it's time to embrace a future of self-love and growth. Trust that the pain is necessary to heal and that moving on is not just possible, but necessary for your well-being. Trust that the future holds happiness, just not with him.

These are my thoughts and experiences. Wishing you the best as you navigate this difficult period. Good luck, and may you find happiness in the future!