Understanding Eating Disorders and Binge Episodes: A Personal Journey

While I may identify as anorexic, the truth is that my recent meal of 440 calories is more akin to a planned, albeit large, meal rather than a binge. This experience brings to light the nuances of eating disorders and the importance of seeking help.

The Definition of a Binge

It's important to clarify the definitions when discussing eating disorders. According to the criteria, a binge is defined as:

Eating unusually large amounts of food in a specific amount of time such as over a two-hour period. Feeling that your eating behavior is out of control. Eating even when you're full or not hungry. Eating rapidly during binge episodes.

Typically, a binge involves consumption of over 1000 or 2000 calories. My meal of 440 calories is not technically a binge, but rather, a large meal for my restrictive eating disorder.

Reactive Eating and Its Impact

During the early days of my eating disorder, I too thought I was binging because of reactive eating. Reactive eating occurs when the body has been deprived of food and nutrients for an extended period. Even with the intention to control intake and restrict, the body eventually triggers mechanisms to compensate for this deficiency. Reactive eating can easily transition into binge eating if long-term restriction continues.

I experienced the full range of my eating disorder, from restrictive eating to reactive eating, purging, and ultimately, binge and purge episodes characteristic of bulimia.

Seeking Help and Recovery

Recovering from an eating disorder is not a simple process, and it's crucial to seek professional help. Here are steps to take:

Consult a registered dietitian: They can provide structured guidance and meal planning to help you navigate recovery. Seek therapy: Mental health professionals can address underlying issues and behavioral changes necessary for recovery. Enroll in a treatment program: Some programs offer comprehensive support, including nutritional counseling, therapy, and medical supervision. Seek support on your own: If professional help is not financially feasible, finding community support, joining online forums, and seeking peer support can be beneficial.

Ultimately, the best path to recovery is when you get tired of feeling ill and exhausted, and you start taking the steps to improve your health.

Resources for Help

To get started on your journey to recovery, consider reaching out to the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA). They offer a wealth of resources and support. You can find more information and connect with professionals at

Remember, recovery is possible, and seeking help is a vital first step.